Sunday, December 18, 2011

Well lets see what going on here with us 3 Turay girls!

Well lets see here what has been happening with us 3 Turay girls:

Here we go we will start with ME. Well I only asked for 2 things for Christmas and they was 2 things from a 2 different judges and judical systems and I didn't get one (it is something on how a judge can just slap someone on the wrist when that person ran over 2 people and one of them was a child and as I see it he practically almost murdered us or killed us).  And lets see the other judge is letting a divorce drag on and on. Job is going great really enjoy the staff and the children that I work with. I learned today in church service that I got to have faith and put all my trust in God the Lord. The Lord will make sure that I am safe and that my girls our safe to. All I really want or need is to be finacially in the right place and that my girls our safe and secure and the listen and follower and have the the spirit in them all their life.

Ok done with me so now on Autumn. She has started therapy on her leg and she is starting to put pressure on it and walk on it. She is on Christmas break and out of school until after the first of the year. So yes she is a typical 8 year old child that enjoys to watch movies, play games on laptop, listen to music and also likes to draw and she is starting to read more and more every day.

Now we our on little Liberty. She has gotten use too and liking going to daycare and making new friends. She is your typical 2 year old that is very active and likes to get into everything. She likes to play, draw and aggravate sister LOL.

My girls are my Life and my Sunshine... I'm going to do all I can to have them follow and learn about the Lord our Jesus Savior and hope they our blessed just like I have been. I'm so blessed and thankful for my parents and family.

Love my, Girls, mom, dad, and rest of my family and friends.

This is What I get out of the series at my church!

A Series of: Because of You

Week One: Beacause of You!

* To lead people to become fully devoted followers of Christ.

So we have been greatly encouraged in the midst of our troubles and suffering, dear brothers and sisters, because you have remained strong in your faith. It gives us new life to know that you are standing firm in the Lord. how we thank God for you! Because of you we have great joy as we enter god's presence. 1 Thessalonians 3:7-9


Our Church Values

  • We will do anything short of SIN to reach people who don't know Christ. To reach people no one is reaching, we'll have to DO things no one is doing.
  • We will lead the way with irrational generosity. We truly believe it is more blessed to GIVE than to RECEIVE.
  • We are faith-filled, big thinking, bet-the-farm risk takers. We'll never insult God with SMALL thinking and SAFE living.
  • We are spiritual contributors not spiritual consumers. The church does not exist for US. We are the CHURCH and we exist for the world.
Week Two of: Because of You!

How we thank God for you! Because of you we have great joy as we enter God's presence. 1 Thessalonians 3:9

You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God. This service that you perform is not only supplying the needs of God's people but is also overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God. Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else. 2 Corinthians 9:11-13

GOD IS CHANGING LIVES

1) Because of your SERVING, God is changing lives.

Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God... 2 Corinthians 9:13

2) Because of your GIVING, God is changing lives.

You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion, and through us your generosity will result in thanksgiving to God. 2 Corinthians 9:11

3) Because of your PASSION for people, God is changing lives.

...men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ... 2 Corinthians 9:13


This series really opened up my heart and as I have been going and listening to all the series and really getting to know the Lord and getting the spirits and praising them has gotten me feeling good about myself & raising my girls. My praising and learning about the lord and being spiritual is going to keep coming and i'm going to keep learning on all the other series that our coming up in the future.

 


Saturday, December 3, 2011

"Those People" A series from church that made me wake up & see things!

I've been behind on posting the series that I have heard at church and this series hit me heard in feelings and in the heart. And i'm going to try not to me one of "THOSE PEOPLE" in any of these category's.


Those People

Week One: The Needy!

Those "OVERLY NEEDY" People!

  • RELIEF: IMMEDIATE & TEMPORARY ASSISTANCE!
  • RESTORATION: WORKING WITH PEOPLE TO RESTORE THEM TO THEIR GOD-GIVEN POTENTIAL.

RESTORATION

One day Peter and John were going up to the temple at the time of prayer --- at three in the afternoon. Now a man crippled from birth was being carried to the temple gate called Beautiful, where he was put every day to beg from those going into the temple courts. When he saw Peter and John about to enter, he asked them for money. Peter looked straight at him, as did John. Then Peter said, "Look at us!" So the man gave them his attention, expecting to get something from them. Then Peter said, Silver or gold I do not have, but what I have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk." Taking him by the right hand, he helped him up, and instantly the man's feet and ankles became strong. He jumped to his feet and began to walk. Then he went with them into the temple courts, walking and jumping, and praising God. Acts 3:1-8

Three Prayers of A Restorer


1) GOD, HELP ME GIVE PEOPLE WHAT THEY TRULY NEED NOT JUST WHAT THEY WANT.

"Then Peter said, "Silver or gold I do not have, but what i have I give you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, walk. Acts 3:6"

2) GOD, HELP ME STAY OUT OF YOUR WAY BY NOT CONTINUALLY RESCUING PEOPLE FROM THEIR CONSEQUENCES.

"Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. Galatians 6:7

3) GOD, HELP ME REMEMBER THAT I'M IN NEED TOO AND THAT YOU ARE ALWAYS THE ANSWER.

"Yet I am poor and needy; come quickly to me, O God. You are my help and my deliverer; O Lord, do not delay. Psalm 70:5


Week Two: The Manipulator!

Manipulating People!

  • Two wmen manipulated Herod. Mark 6:21-28
  • Jacob manipulated Esau. Genesis 25:29-34
  • Delilah manipulated Samson. Judges 16:15-19
Then she said to him, "How can you say, "I love you,' when you won't confide in me? this is the third time you have made a fool of me and haven't told me the secret of your great strength." With such nagging she prodded him day after day until he was tired to death. Judges 16:15-16

Common Tactics of Manipulators
  • Flattery
  • Threats
  • Guilt

Breaking the Power of Manipulation

1) GOD, HELP ME RECOGNIZE WHEN SOMEONE IS TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME.

"From that time on Jesus began to explain to his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things at the hands of the elders, chief priests and teachers of the law, and that he must be killded and on the third day be raised to life. Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. "Never, Lord!" he said. "This shall never happen to you!" Matthew 16:21-22

How do you know if you're being manipulated?
  • You often feel guilty and find it hard to say "NO."
  • You compromise you values to please others.

2) GOD, EMPOWER ME TO PUT HEALTHY BOUNDARIES IN PLACE.

"Jesus turned and said to Peter, "Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the things of God, but the things of men." Matthew 16:23

3) GOD, HELP ME SEE MY OWN NEED TO CONTROL AND SURRENDER EVERYTHING TO YOU.

"You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! Trust in the Lord always for the Lord God is the eternal Rock." Isaiah 26:3-4

Week Three: The Hypocrite!

THOSE HYPOCRITICAL PEOPLE!

hupokrites (hoop-ok-ree-tace'); an actor; stage-player, one who hides behind a mask.

"You hypocrites! Isaiah was right when he prophesied about you: "These people honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me." Matthew 15:7-8


PRAYERFUL CONFRONTATION

1) GOD, HELP ME CONFRONT WITH THE GOAL OF RESTORATION.

"Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently." Galatians 6:1

"My brothers, if one of you should wander from the truth and someone should bring him back, remember this: whoever turns a sinner from the error of his way will save him from death and cover a multitude of sins." James 5:19-20

2) GOD, HELP ME CONFRONT WITH CAUTION.

"Brothers, if someone is caught in a sin, you who are spiritual should restore him gently. but watch yourself, or you also may be tempted..." Galations 6:1

"So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall!" 1 Corinthians 10:12

3) GOD, HELP ME SEE WHEN I'M THE HYPOCRITE.


"David burned with anger against the man and said to Nathan, "As surely as the LORD lives, the man who did this deserves to die! He must pay for that lamb four times over, because he did such a thing and had no pity." Then Nathan said to David, "You are the man!"" 2 Samuel 12:5-7


"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. do not cast me from your presence or take you Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me." Psalm 51:10-12

Week Four: Critic

THOSE CRITICAL PEOPLE!
  • Aaron and Miriam criticized Moses. Numbers 12:1-8
  • People criticized Paul for being a bad speaker. 2 Corinthians 10:10
  • Pharisees criticized Jesus for eating with sinners and healing on the Sabbath. Mark 2:16, Luke 13:14

CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM

  • NEVER IGNORE THE VALUE OF CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM.
"If you listen to constructive criticism, you will be at home among the wise. If you reject criticism, you only harm yourself...Proverbs 15:31-32


DEALING WITH UNJUST CRITICISM

1) GOD, HELP ME KNOW WHEN TO RESPOND TO CRITICISM.


"Now the Ephraimites asked Gideon, "Why have you treated us like this?...And they criticized him sharply. But he answered them..." Judges 8:1-2

"...When the men of Ephraim heard Gideon's answer, they were no longer angry." Judges 8:3

2) GOD, HELP ME KNOW WHEN TO DISMISS INVALID CRITICISM.

"When they hurled their insults at [Jesus], he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly." 1 Peter 2:23

3) GOD, HELP ME OVERCOME MY OWN CRITICAL NATURE.

 
"Some people make cutting remarks, but the words of the wise bring healing." Proverbs 12:18
 
He said this in his sermon: YOU CAN'T PEASE EVERYBODY...I CAN PLEASE GOD!
 
These four weeks of this series was very powerful and it got to me alot and alot of ways I need to pay attention more and more with my life and all in the future.
 
GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
 
 




Monday, November 28, 2011

Well lets see it's been awhile since I have posted anything on here!!

Well i'm doing pretty good....besides some things like I guess someone just got slapped on the hand for trying to kill me and our daughter because evidently all he has to do is pay some fines but I would like to know how he plans on paying them because he has no job or money because he sure hasn't been paying his child support or even supporting his kids in no way but oh well his karma will come people tell me but when. And when will I get what I want or need I would like or love some good luck here.

Daughter Autumn is doing really good she is getting around really good with her leg. she goes back to the doctor tomorrow Nov. 28th which hoping she will be able to put some weight on that leg and start walking around on it with her brace on. She went back to school 2 weeks ago after the head diability person called me of the Sapulpa Public Schools evidently the school should of been sending someone to the house to make sure Autumn is doing and staying with her class or they should of worked at away she could of gotten help at the school with what she needed help with the wheelchair and restroom. So yes she almost got dropped out of school oh boy what a month of November.

Daughter Liberty is doing really good she is her own little self. She is a typical little 2 year old LOL! Well her big sister cut her bangs and a patch in the back of her hair and on top of that she is going to get her 2 year old pictures taken on Wednesday Oh boy this will be a picture to remember and tell her about.

Church is going great and been hearing some great services and my spirits have been lefted so much and I really hope that the years that come with my girls growing up and they really listen and get the spirit of Jesus in their heart too.

Love my 2 beautiful girls and my life with them & my family!

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Well Life is still going on here with the Turay girls!

Life is still going on here with life with us....

We are adjusting and getting in a routine with Autumn. Just got to get the school on ball so I can get her school work from last week and the week to come.

I start my new job on Monday and am a little excited and nervous. Libby starts their too and she will adjust well in her new class!

Love my life and enjoy spending time with my girls!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

oh boy what a weekend and first week of October!

Well its been a trying and crazy first week of October. I had a decision to make about jobs once again but I choiced the closer job much less the further one. So I will save on gas and plus childcare so hopefully it will so workout to the best for me and the girls.

Liberty is doing good she is being her little silly self and what a two year old does. She is very active and goes all over the place. But I love my little stinkier so much.

Autumn she is doing good in school and she is listening to doctors about getting some weight off and then she had her first field trip at school and picture day too. She went to play with some friends and she was running playing chase in flip flops and she fell: so she ended up going to St Johns in Sapulpa and then they said she broke her femur bone in her right leg the hardest bone to break, and so then they had to transport her to St Francis er and she got some other xrays done their and they found a cyst in her bone and said that is how she broke her femur bone so easy....so the very next day Saturday she had surgery on her leg. So we have been in the hospital since Friday night and hoping she starts corporating and all with the therapist on getting out of the bed so we can get home.

Mom had her surgery and is doing good she is just trying to keep her swelling down in her foot. Dad he is just the best taking care of everyone and everything especially know that we have 2 down with broken bones.

Saturday, October 1, 2011

It's been a long journey just in the past 3 to 4 weeks!

Well mine and girls journey is still going and we are waiting for our break of not having so much put on us, but it hasn't came yet.

So I've been hearing and listening to the Change your World in 52 Days: The story of Nehemiah at church.

Week one: Ordinary World Changers!

The words of Nehemiah son of Hacaliah: In the month of Kislev in the twentieth year, while I was in the citadel of Susa, Hanani, one of my brothers, came from Judah with some other men, and I questioned them about the Jewish remnant that survived the exile, and also about Jerusalem. They said to me, "Those who survived the exile and are back in the province are in great trouble and disgrace. The wall of Jerusalem is broken down, and its gates have been burned with fire. "When I heard these things, I sat down and wept. For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven.......Nehemiah 1:1-4

Ordinary Word Changers

1) Sit down to Cry.

When I heard these things, I sat down and wept ....Nehemiah 1:4

*What breaks your Heart?: What breaks my heart is children that get abused and neglected. And the children that have one parent that care about them and the other parent doesn't care(all children need both of their parents for security, safety and for support.) And for the hungry children in this world and not only in other countries we have hungry children in the U.S. too, but does anyone care about that.

2) Kneel down to Pray.

...For some days I mourned and fasted and prayed before the God of heaven. Nehemiah 1:4

3) Stand up to Act.

...I said to the king, "May the king live forever! Why should my face not look sad when the city where my fathers are buried lies in ruins, and its gates have been destroyed by fire?" The King said to me, "What is it you want?" Then I prayed to the God of heaven, and I answered the king, "If it pleases the king and if your servant has found favor in his sight, let him send me to the city in Judish where my fathers are buried so that I can rebuild it." Nehemiah 2:3-5

A VERY GOOD SERVICE!

I missed week two :(

Week three: Defeating Discouragement.

***We don't face opposition because we're doing something WRONG, we face it because we're doing something RIGHT.***


Your Enemy will attempt to

1) Discourage you from the outside.

When Sanballat heard that we were rebuilding the wall, he became angry and was greatly incensed. He ridiculed the Jews, and in the presence of his associates and the army of Samaria, he said, "What are those feeble Jews doing? Will they restore their wall? Will they offer sacrifices? Will they finish in a day? Can they bring the stones back to life from those heaps of rubble - burned as they are?" Tobiah the Ammonite, who was at his side, said, "What they are building - if even a fox climbed up on it, he would break down their wall of stones?" Nehemiah 4:1-3

  •  Obstacles
  •  Criticism
***Take it to God***

***Get back to Work***

2) Discourage you from the inside.

Meanwhile, the people in Judah said, "The strength of the laborers is giving out, and theres is so much rubble that we cannot rebuild the wall." Nehemiah 4:10


Defeating Discouragement

After I looked things over, I stood up and said to the nobles, the officials and the rest of the people, "Don't be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome, and fight for your brothers, your sons and your daughters, your wives and your homes." Nehemiah 4:14

1) Remember the Lord.

...Don't be afraid of them. Remember the Lord, who is great and awesome. Nehemiah 4:14

2) Fight for you cause.

...and fight for your brothers, your sons, and your daughters, your wives and your homes." Nehemiah 4:14


I have all kinds of obstacles in my LIFE these days....and it causes all kinds of DISCOURAGEMENTS with me too! I need to work on my obstacles and my discouragements big time and that is what i'm trying to do know with my girls and mine with life and hope and wish that my luck and life can get better at one point or another!



Sunday, September 4, 2011

Me and the Girls!

Well a update on me and the girls! Well we have visited a church and we liked it and we have started going every Sunday.

Me: I'm still just working, home, working and plus taking care of the girls.....No time for myself!

Autumn has started back to school she is in 2nd grade and she is loving it so far and she is riding the bus this year too. Well she is done with her OT Service so that means she has no more IEPS and I'm so proud of her and glad she is doing so good in school.

Liberty she is still going to daycare she has turned 2 and she is working on getting potty trained and she has been without her pacifer for a whole week so thank we our done with the paci's YAY! Know we just get her to potty in the toilet and get rid of the pull ups and we will be all good!

Visitations with their dad has started he hasn't gotten the concept of the visitations he just got them both on Saturday and Autumn spent the night but he get her on Friday night until Sunday but he didn't understand that evidently.....so their 2nd weekend is coming up so will wait and see what happens if he comes up with some excuse or gets her on Friday night.....He will have to pick them up and bring them home this time because i'm not meeting him unless he brings Autumn to church or after church when i'm in Tulsa. He will also have to go buy his own pull ups because i'm not sending any and yes my lawyer knows that too. Money is tight here and I really want to get my own apartment and I can't when I have to supply to daycare and pay all this other and he isn't even paying child support and the court systems our taking their sweet and own time on forcing it and getting it going and done.

Thats our update of the 3 Turay girls that our living life to the fullest and plus living life through Jesus our Savior!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

The Series that started last Sunday.....Two-Gather!

Week one of Two-Gather: Heart and Soul!

For where two or three gather together as my followers, I am there among them. Matthew 18:20

  • You'll never do all God wants you to do without the right people around you.
One day Jonathan son of Saul said to the young man bearing his armor, "Come, let's go over to the Philistine outpost on the other side." But he did not tell his father. 1 Samuel 14:1


The Right People to Help Us!
  • Navigate obstacles and temptations.
On each side of the pass that Jonathan intended to cross to reach the Philistine outpost was a cliff; one was called Bozez, and the other Seneh. 1 Samuel 14:4
  • Overcome weavering faith.
Jonathan said to his young armor-bearer, "Come, let's go over to the outpost of those uncircumcised fellows. Perhaps the Lord will act in our behalf. Nothing can hinder the Lord from saving..." 1 Samuel 14:6
The Right People!
  • Are with you heart and soul.
"Do all that you have in mind," his armor-bearer said. "Go ahead; I am with you heart and soul." 1 Samuel 14:7


Week two of Two-Gather: Where Everybody knows your Name!

For where two or three gather together as my followers, I am there among them. Matthew 18:20

There was a man all alone; he had neither son nor brother. There was no end to his toil, yet his eyes were not content with his wealth... Ecclesiastes 4:8

Things that would stop us on building those RELATIONSHIPS:
  • Naivety
  • Temperament
  • Fear
  • Past Experiences
  • Busyness
Since we are all one body in Christ, we belong to each other, and each of us needs all the others. Romans 12:5

  1. Arena - I know and you know.
  • I people who really know me.
For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him?...1 Corinthians 2:11

     2. Mask - I know but you don't know.
  • I need people who will protect me.
We refuse to wear masks and play games... Rather, we keep everything we do and say out in the open... 2 Corinthians 4:2

     3. Blind spots - I don't know but you know.
  • I need people who will be honest with me.
Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful. Proverbs 27:6

      4. Potential - I don't know and you don't know.
  • I need people who will grow me.
...As each part does its work, it helps the other parts grow, so Christ's whole body is healthy and growing and full of love. Ephesians 4:16

A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother. Proverbs 18:24


I'm so listening to the series they teacher or saying to me and I really need to find my HEART & SOUL AND MY PLACE WHERE EVERYONE KNOWS MY NAME: and especially knows me or even wants to know me for who I am and who I will become following the word and our Christ!

Can't wait to start the next series and hear the next series! 

 








Saturday, September 3, 2011

Amazing Boldness

My first full series through Lifechurch services and it was a really good one. We had 4 weekends of this series and it was called: Being Bold!

Week one was about Amazing Boldness!

  • Boldness is behavior born out of belief!
Boldness: parrhesia(par-rhay-see'-ah); outspokenness, assurance, courage, confidence; to act without fear.

Bold Facts:
  1. God gives ordinary people extraordinary boldness.    .....[The leaders] could see that [Peter and John] were ordinary men with no special training in the scriptures.....Acts 4:13
  2. Your boldness will amaze the world.    .....The members of the council were amazed when they saw the boldness of Peter and John...Acts 4:13
  3. Spiritual Boldness comes from knowing christ.

TIME with Jesus builds your FAITH; which leads to BOLDNESS that produces spiritual RESULTS!

Second week was Boldness Prayers.

What you pray for reflects what you believe about God.
  • Pray for boldness.    Now Lord, consider their threats and enable your servants to speak your word with great boldness. Acts 4:29
  • Pray for miracles.    Stretch out your hand to heal and perform miraculous signs and wonders through the name of your holy servant Jesus." Acts 4:30

Week three was about Bold Speaking.

We speak boldy about what we believe deeply.
  • So Saul...moved about freely in Jerusalem, speaking boldy in the name of the Lord. Acts 9:28
  • So Paul and Barnabas spent considerable time there, speaking boldly for the Lord...Acts 14:3
  • ...And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly. Acts 4:31
Acts 4:16-20

Because I believe so DEEPLY:
  • I can't help but speak boldly to myself.      And David was greatly distressed; for the people spoke of stoning him...but David encouraged himself in the Lord his God. 1 Samuel 30:6
  • I can't help but encourage you.    But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today...Hebrews 3:13
  • I can't help but lovingly correct you.    Wounds from a friend can be trusted, but an enemy multiplies kisses. Provebs 27:6
  • I can't help but lead you toward christ.    For we cannot help speaking about what we have seen and heard. Acts 4:20
Week four was Bold Obedience:

Acts 5:17-20

Bold Obedience:
  1. Usually triggers opposition.     They arrested the apostles and put them in the public jail. Acts 5:18
  2. Often releases God's miracles.    But during the night an angel of the Lord opened the doors of the jail anf brought them out. Acts 5:19
  3. Always requires faith.    "Go, stand in the temple courts," he said, "and tell the people the full message of this new life." Acts 5:20

At daybreak they entered the temple courts, as they had been told, and began to teach the people...Acts 5:21
  • Delayed obedience is Disobedience.
  • Partial obedience is Disobedience.

"We gave you strict orders not to teach in this name," he said. "Yet you have filled Jerusalem with your teaching and are determined to make us quilty of this man's blood." 29 Peter and the other apostles replied: "We must obey God rather than men!" Acts 5:28-29

Time, Faith, Boldness, and you will for sure get Results!


I pray thee Lord that you give me strength to follow you and put you first with my children......Give me the strength to get through these struggles I am going through, Please dear Lord show me the way I need to go and get me through all my problems and show me I can do it with all my mighty. AMEN!









My 1st experience at Lifechurch.TV

My first experience at Lifechurch.TV was great and amazing it really lifted up my spirits and the girls likes their classes and we have been going every Sunday since we went our first time.


We heard the last of the At The Movies Series and these was the scriptures that stuck with me that I liked:

  • God heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3
  • You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good.....Genesis 50:20
  • Don't worry about how to respend or what to say. God will give you the right words at the right time. For it is not you who will be speaking---it will be the spirit of your father speaking through you. Matthew 10:19-20

So yes I decided to recommit myself and dedicate my life into serving the Lord our savior! And just to live a better and happier life and hope and pray that my children will see that seving him they will get and live a better life!


Saturday, July 30, 2011

June & July was a tab bit better!

Let's see well Liberty started childcare where I work and she made some new friends and has enjoyed it at times, but she has also gotten a little more attached to momma. She is talking more and saying clearer words more too since she has started at the childcare. She turned 2 in July we just didn't a little family party for her on her bday nothing to big. It was from the Dr. Seuss book "One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish, Blue Fish". I made all birthday decorations and her birthday shirt she got to take a Ice Cream cone birthday cupcakes to childcare and celebrate her birthday with her new friends. And she got 2 other cakes that mimi made her too. She had a good birthday party. She is my sunshine and the reason I keep going and going.


Let's see Autumn she hasn't gotten to do to much over the summer which I feel sorry for her but hope to make it up to her and we get a place of our own soon. She has gotten to go swimming a couple of times and hope to take her a couple more before schools starts. She is excited about starting 2nd grade in her new school this year. She is my sunshine and the reason I keep going and going.


Well as far as me i'm just working, working and working and taking care of 2 great daughters that I love dearly. Still trying to get this divorce over with and hoping it all goes good on August 9th for court and alson on September 14th on back child support court. Yea it seems alot and stressful but I have been managing good and even been better without the person in my life and the girls.


But I have gotten some things thrown up at me so I wrote a little note to set things straight:
If you don't like what is about to be said in my note then don't read it and especially don't comment! This is my facebook page and I can write on it anything I want. And it's not dirty laundry and it's not drama IT'S THE TRUTH!


nd a churc
Well I got it thrown up at me that I got left for another woman, but the TRUTH IS AND THE REAL TRUTH! Is that I got tired of being VERBALLY ABUSED and plus tired of seeing and hearing MY DAUGHTER GET VERBALLY ABUSED! And YES I should of done something about it along time ago but I wanted my marriage to work but the truth is he verbally abused his family and the cheating he just added in on it.


All I asked was for him to change his attitude and quit cussing me out and his kids out and he got all made and walked out and abandoned his family and kids and lied and cheated instead of ending the marriage the right way. Yes I made the mistake giving him chances and chances and believing his lies. I listened to him instead of others that our there for me and my girls and always will be too. I regret listening to him back in November and all three of those months. I believed his excuse's when he got caught instead of listening to his mistress on top of it. So know that i'm not listening to his lies or his excuse's or believing anything he says I realize i'm better off without him and I DESERVE ALOT BETTER.


But I can say one thing I did not abandon my kids. I'm taking care of them like a parent should: SUPPORTING THEM FINANCIALLY, GIVING THEM SECURITY AND STABILITY IN THEIR LIFE. I've read and seen where their is several types of abuse you have: Psychological abuse, Sexual abuse, Child neglect, and Physical abuse.


1. Psychological abuse which is emotional abuse and is in the patterns of behavior that impairs emotional development or sense of self-worth. This includes constant criticism, threats, or rejection, as well as withholding love, support, or guidance. Lets see my kids get criticized and rejected and not being loved and isn't getting support or getting any guidance. I have picked up the pieces to make sure my girls don't feel rejected, loved, supported and getting the guidance they need and norturing.


2. Child Neglect which is failure to provide for a child's basic needs. Neglect is: Physical (failure to provide necessary food or shelter, or lack of appropriate supervision), Medical (failure to provide necessary medical or mental health treatment), Educational (failure to educate a child or attend to special education needs), and Emotional (inattention to a child's emotional needs, failure to provide psychological care, or permitting the child to use alcohol or other drugs). I have picked up the pieces of making sure my children have food, shelter and lots of supervision, and they have medical insurance and treatment, and they go to school everyday and to school functions, and I have for sure picked up the pieces of their emotional needs of feeling abandon and I let them know I come back everyday after I get off work and if I do anything in evenings or weekends.


So PLEASE don't throw it up to me I got left for another woman.....READ THE FACTS and if you would like a copy of where I got the information for abuse I will be willing to send you a copy of it.
Thank You for listening, reading and understanding!


SO YES I HAVE MOVED ON AND I HAVE NEVER FELT BETTER FOR THE DECISION I HAVE MADE FOR FILING FOR DIVORCE! I JUST REGRET THAT I LET HIM PLAY ME AND USE ME WHEN I DID EVERYTHING TO MAKE OR MARRIAGE WORK BY BEING THEIR FOR HIM, SUPPORTING HIM FINANCIALLY, AND JUST CARING FOR HIM. So his new woman can support him all they want because i'm not anymore and I DON'T CARE WHAT HE DOES WITH HIS LIFE!


HE JUST NEEDS TO STEP UP AND BE A FATHER THAT WILL SUPPORT HIS KIDS FINANCIALLY, GIVE THEM GUIDANCE, AND SOME SECURITY!




I love my girls dearly and I will fight for them dearly. Can their father say he has done, in my opinion no. Because everytime he calls he cuss's me out still and everything is about him and when I talk to him I always mention the girls it's never about me and what I can't do, BECAUSE I CAN DO ANYTHING I SET MY MIND ACROSS TO DO! And thats what i'm doing too. So yes this is what I am still going through and hopefully it will be over soon. KEEPING FINGERS CROSSED AND PRAYING HARD THAT IT DOES. I'm also hoping to have a apartment for me and girls soon too just waiting for some people to decide to move somewhere else or they get their new place built and opened up!


SO LIFE CAN ONLY GET BETTER FROM HERE!


That's all I have to say today will be back on in a week or two. Oh and also we fouh we all three like to go too and thanks to my new friend Keomi. So going to go to church and get recommitted to the Father that is always their for and keeps my faith going!

Sunday, June 5, 2011

June is going to be better than May has been!

Ok HELLO everyone! I'm sure hoping and expecting for June to be better then May, but we will see.

Liberty my youngest started childcare over where I work. She did good the first day and the second day, but the third day she cried and had her melt down. But it will get better for her and she will get the social interaction with kids her own age too.

Autumn my youngest started her summer vacation and she is enjoying sleeping in. She is on me about going swimming at the big swimming pool. We will go several times this summer.

Me my life is work, take care of 2 girls, and try to get out of financial debt and enjoying life with the girls. And trying to get my vehicle fixxed from being in a wreck.

Get back when something exciting happens.

Well new & starting on blogging!

Hello, My name is Michelle i've just become a single mom of 2 beautiful girls just this last year. Between a separation and then started divorce procedures and then trying to recouncile my marriage and found out the person is nothing but a liar and cheater and didn't want his family. So know trying to coupe and get financially situated with being the only income and getting alittle assistance here and their and no support from girls father. We will get through this and keep getting on with our life. I've kept my girls spirits up by letting them know i'm there for them and they our secure and safe.

I'm just getting use to being single again and just doing things with my girls they come first before my needs. We our happy and just getting along as well as we can with the economic the way it is. Everything Happens for a Reason and thats what I keep telling myself. I'm looking forward to my new adventure and life with my 2 beautiful girls.