Summer is here and so ready for it!

Well Summer is here and Autumn has been out of school since May 11th and has already done plenty of things since she has been out.

Autumn had a friend come over and stay with her the first weekend out of school. They had lots of fun Libby followed them around like she was part of them LOL.

We went to the zoo and they had a blast walking around and then later that evening we went to a special boys 4 year old birthday party Quinton.

Here our some photos from the Day at the Zoo:

Brionna, Autumn, and Libby!

These girls had a blast this day!

On the train and Libby was so excited she was going Choo choo!

Love this picture with girls and the sea lion looks as they our petting it.

Another favorite of mine with giraffe in the background!

That was one of adventure to do after school is out and summer break even though it was on a weekend but I work during week so we do alot of our on weekends. We even went to church that night also so it was a busy busy day!

We even had a great Mother's day spending with girls, and went to church with mom and grandma!

Grandma, Autumn, Skyleigh, Mom, Libby, and Me!

Mom and the 3 girls and me!

Me and my beautiful girls!

Me, Mom, Magnet, and my Brother Brian!

It was a great day!

Well that is good for know on a update with our life and how it is going so well. And so will update you guys alittle later on some other things. With them swimming in pool for first time and some other days.

Soul Detox....Get you Soul Detox!!!

Soul Detox---1

The Heavy Soul

• WE ARE NOT A BODY WITH A SOUL.
• WE ARE A SOUL WITH A BODY.

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Psalm 42:5

WHY ARE OUR SOULS HEAVY?

* HEAVY WITH HURTS FROM THE PAST.

I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Lamentations 3:19-20

* HEAVY WITH TROUBLE IN THE PRESENT.

But now trouble comes to you, and you are discouraged; it stikes you, and you are dismayed. Job 4:5

* HEAVY WITH ANXIETY ABOUT THE FUTURE.

...[Jesus] began to be deeply distressed and troubled. My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death..."  Mark 14:33-34

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put you hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.  Psalm 42:5-6

TELL YOUR SOUL TO

* REMEMBER GOD'S FAITHFULNESS IN THE PAST.

I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. Lamentations 3:19-23

* CRY OUT TO GOD IN THE PRESENT.

I pour out my complaint before him; before him I tell my trouble... I cry to you, O Lord; I say, "You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living." Listen to my cry, for I am in desperate need. Psalm 142:2, 5-6

* TRUST IN GOD'S POWER FOR YOU FUTURE.

"Be strong and courageous. do not be afraid or discouraged because of the king of Assyria and the vast army with him, for there is a greater power with us than with him. With him is only the arm of flesh, but with us is the Lord our God to help us and to fight our battles..." 2 Chronicles 32:7-8

SOUL DETOX---2

THE TORTURED SOUL

• WE ARE NOT A BODY WITH A SOUL.
• WE ARE A SOUL WITH A BODY.

Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul. 1 Peter 2:11

WHAT TORTURES OUR SOULS?

1) WE'RE TORTURED BY THINGS WE'VE DONE.

...my bones have no soundness because of my sin., My guilt has overwhelmed me like a burden too heavy to bear. Psalm 38:3-4

2) WE'RE TORTURED BY LIES WE BELIEVE.

...[The devil] was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. John 8:44-45

TELL YOUR SOUL

1) IT'S BETTER TO CONFESS YOUR SINS THAN HIDE YOUR SINS.

He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy. Proverbs 28:13

* We confess to God for Forgiveness of sins.

If we confess our sins, [God] is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

* We confess to People for Healing from sins.

Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. James 5:16

2) CHRIST WILL SET YOU FREE.

No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. 1 Corinthians 10:13

He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his woulds you have been healed. For you were like sheep going astray, but now you have returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls. 1 Peter 2:24-25

SOUL DETOX---3

THE RESTLESS SOUL

• WE ARE NOT A BODY WITH A SOUL.
• WE ARE A SOUL WITH A BODY.

And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul. Genesis 2:7 KJV

THE CURSE OF THE RESTLESS SOUL

Now you are under a curse and driven from the ground, which opened its mouth to receive your brother's blood from your hand. When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth. Genesis 4:11-12

What does a man get for all the toil and anzious striving with which he labors under the sun? All his days his work is pain and grief; even at night his mind does not rest... Ecclesiastes 2:22-23







WHERE DO WE FIND REST FOR OUR SOULS?

• OUR SOULS FIND REST IN GOD ALONE.

My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. Psalm 62:1

"You have made us for yourelf, O Lord, and our soul is restless until it finds rest in you." Augustine

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Matthew 11:28-29

HOW DO WE FIND REST IN GOD?

• BE STILL BEFORE GOD.

Be still, and know that I am God... Psalm 46:10

But I have stilled and quieted my soul... Psalm 131:2

•  WAIT FOR GOD.

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him... Psalm 37:7

I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope. My soul waits for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning... Psalm 130:5-6

• What do you want to say to me?
• What do you want to show me?
• What do you want to do in me?

• REFLECT ON GOD'S GOODNESS

Be at rest once more, O my soul, for the Lord has been good to you. For you, O Lord, have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling, that I may walk before the Lord in the land of the living. Psalm 116:7-9



SOUL DETOX---4

THE SEDUCED SOUL

• WE ARE NOT A BODY WITH A SOUL.
• WE ARE A SOUL WITH A BODY.

You shall have no other gods before me. You shall not make for yourself an idol in the form of anything in heaven above or on the earth beneath or in the waters below. Exodus 20:3-4

So do not corrupt yourselves by making an idol in any form -- whether of a man or a woman, an animal on the ground, a bird in the sky, a small animal that scurries along the ground, or a fish in the deepest sea. And when you look up into the sky and see the sun, moon, and stars -- all the forces of heaven -- don't be seduced into worshiping them. Deuteronomy 4:16-19 NLT

What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, yet forfeit his soul? Mark 8:36

DETHRONING THE IDOLS OF OUR SOULS

1) IDENTIFY THE IDOLS OF OUR SOULS.

Who may ascend the hill of the Lord? Who may stand in his holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, who does not lift up his soul to an idol. Psalm 24:3-4

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2) TEAR DOWN OUR IDOLS.

...Tear down your father's altar to Baal and cut down the Asherah pole beside it. Judges 6:25

Jesus looked at him and loved him. "One thing you lack, he said, "Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me." Mark 10:21

3) FILL YOUR SOUL WITH GOD.

My soul yearns, even faints, for the courts of the Lord; my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God. Psalm 84:2

For [God] satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul he fills with good things. Psalm 107:9 ESV

As the dear pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thrists for God, for the living God... Psalm 42:1-2









 These our my 2 beautiful Girls.

They our my Life, Faith, and gives me Strength throughout my life and going to be my

long time future to make sure they get what they want and need in the future and show them

how they can do whatever they want even if people tell them they can't. Let them know they

can be strong and be confidence and don't let anyone hurt them and keep their faith in God he is

always with us. Thank You God for giving me the beautiful girls I have and I am so blessed to

know you and have you in my life!

Well May is going thats all I can say. Well looks as will be paying rent here at parents house cause

don't look like getting a place of own anytime soon. I just want my own space; so I can decorate walls, and just do what I want(even though do that here) but just don't feel as it is my own space and

can't have anyone over whenever I want and then if I want to plan a birthday party like 2 in the

future can't have them here cause someone doesn't like what her house looks like. I just want my

own space thats all I want.....is it hard to ask or want something. Evidently it is hard for me to get!

Autumn is excited about being out of school for the summer and we got the pool up so going to

be one fun and excited summer. Think going to take the girls to Branson for a mini vacation too.

Libby is doing great on potty training. She is wearing big girl panties all the time know. And she is

being a typical 2 year old any other time.

For the Lord gives wisdom;

From His mouth come knowledge and understanding;

He stores up sound wisdom for the upright;

He is a shield to those who walk upright;

He guards the paths of justice,

And preserves the way of His saints.

Then you will understand righteousness and justice,

Equity and every good path.

                                      Proverbs 2:6-9

But the salvation of the righteous is from the Lord;

He is their strength in the time of trouble.

And the Lord shall help them and deliver them;

He shall deliver them from the wicked,

And save them,

Because they trust in Him.

                                 Psalm 37:39-40

I am going to leave my faith in God and he will lead me where I need to go especially in getting

my own space and place for me and my girls!

April is coming to a end!

Well April is coming to a end and we will start the month of May.

Got to Love this weather we have been having, but will get hot soon and think it will be sooner then usual.

My birthday was great spent it with some wonderful women: eating at Texas Roadhouse, and then went Cosmic Bowling and having lots of fun. And then girls spent half morning with their dad and grandma Turay which he was suppose to keep them until 6 or 7 but didn't and which he was suppose to have them from Friday 6 to Sunday 6 but didn't want too. It's excuse after another but oh well more time for me. And if I had a excuse for everytime I didn't want to do something or not work man what would my life be like. So then spent rest of afternoon with girls and parents that Saturday and then on Sunday went to church to hear the new series "Soul Detoux" and bought his book and a 10 year t-shirt for me and Autumn none in Libby's size. 10 years for the Lifechurch.tv of Tulsa celebrated last weekend. Then went for birthday dinner with parents and girls at Chilli's and then later that evening had birthday cake and ice cream at Davis Park great day and evening. And I loved the saying that my daughter Autumn picked out on the cake "Happy Birthday to the Best Mom Ever!" She is so sweet I love my girls.

Autumn only has 2 more weeks of school and she is out for the Summer Lucky girl......Know it is time to start planning a little trip to get away with my girls!

I got rid of the Dodge Charger and got me a 2012 Chevy Cruze which is another great way to end April and start my life on my own. WHO NEEDS A MAN NOT ME. I was doing alot of this alone when I was married and hasn't changed. Just alittle help here from parents by giving us a place to live and all but hopefully will be changing that by getting into a place of our own. Had the interview with the Sand Springs Home village and hopefully in another week will hear from them. But if it is meant to be then it is meant to be. That is how I am seeing it so I really hope it is meant to be got to stay positive and not be negative.

Well enough said and will update on the new series of Soul Detoux in a another 3 weeks our experience with Lifechurch.tv and I will update what girls experience in their classes too.

God Bless Everyone!

Life is going really good......

Life is really going good for me and the girls. We our so Blessed and Thankful for Jesus our Savior to give us such a healthy life to live, for me to have a job to take care of all of us, and for the family we have in our life.

Well I'm doing great and am so happy with life these days and couldn't be any better. Got rid of a car and got a new one so that is a good sign. I have a job and I like it too especially the hours which our 7 to 3:30 because I would rather get up early and get off earlier then 5 or later LOL. Well I am just adjusting to the life of being a single mom and just being single again and it's going great and I am in no big hurry to be in no relationship either just taking my time and plus I will be really picky on who I meet and date. I have two beautiful girls to thank about. Well that is enough about me.

Autumn is doing great. She is enjoying school and talks about her friends at school too alot. She is wearing glasses know and they our holding off on leg surgery to take the cyst out. So she is happy because she gets her summer for fun activities and plus that is good cause I'm going to start planning us a vacation to take this summer too. She can't wait until the last day of school.

Liberty well she is the typical 2 year old you can imagine LOL. She isn't a morning person but then give her awhile and she is playing, smiling and just hopping right along with all the kiddos at daycare. She is being alittle stubborn about potting in the potty. We ask her if she want to be a big girl? she say "no" and then we ask her if she wants to stay baby? she says "yes" LOL! Well then memaw askes her if she wants to go see Mickey & Minnie Mouse and she says "YES" so then we tell her she needs to go be a big girl and peepee in the potty. Which she is doing really good peepee in the potty if she stays on top of it but then she needs to remember and to poopoo in the potty too. So hopefully she will be a big a girl within the next month or so.m

Well that is what is up with us Turay Girls here in Sapulpa, OK!

WHY......Didn't God Answer my Prayers! Don't I Always Feel God's Presence?

WHY---1

WHY DON'T I ALWAYS FEEL GOD?

* IF YOU DON'T ALWAYS FEEL GOD'S PRESENCE, YOU'RE NOT ALONE.

But I cry to you for help, O Lord; in the morning my prayer comes before you. Why, O Lord, do you reject me and hide your face from me?    Psalm 88:13-14

WHY DON'T I ALWAYS FEEL GOD?

* MAYBE YOU ARE OVER SENSTONALIZING IT.

So they asked him, "What miraculous sign then will you give that we may see it and believe you? What will you do?"     John 6:30

* MAYBE YOUR'RE SIMPLY DISTRACTED.

As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made.   Luke 10:38-40

* MAYBE YOUR HEART HAS HARDENED.

You will be ever hearing but never understanding; you will be ever seeing but never perceiving. For this people's heart had become calloused; they hardly hear with their ears, and they have closed their eyes.      Matthew 13:14-15

* MAYBE YOU'VE BUILT A WALL OF SIN.

Listen! The LORD is not too weak to save you, and he is not becoming deaf. he can hear you when you call. But there is a problem -- your sins have cut you off God.     Isaiah 59:1-2

* MAYBE YOU DON'T KNOW GOD.

You do not know him, but I know him because I am from him and he sent me.    John 7:28-29

PRESENCE PROMISES

1) YOU WILL FIND GOD WHEN YOU SEEK GOD.

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD...        Jeremiah 29:13-14

2) YOU CAN DO LIFE WITH GOD'S PRESENCE.

And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor, who will never leave you. He is the Holy Spirit, who leads into all truth. The world at large cannot receive him, because it isn't looking for him and doesn't recognize him. But you do, because he lives with you now and later will be in you.    John 14:16-17

3) YOU CAN EXPERIENCE GOD NOW.

God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us.     Acts 17:27

WHY---2

WHY DIDN'T GOD ANSWER MY PRAYER?

And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.    John 14:13-14

WHY DIDN'T GOD ANSWER MY PRAYER?

* MAYBE YOU HAVE A BROKEN RELATIONSHIP.

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.

Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of lifem, so that nothing will hinder your prayers.     1 Peter 3:7

* MAYBE YOU HAVE THE WRONG MOTIVES.

When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your own pleasures.    James 4:3

All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord.     Proverbs 16:2

* MAYBE YOU DON'T BELIEVE GOD WILL DO IT.

"...But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us." "If you can'?" said Jesus. "Everything is possible for him who believes."     Mark 9:22-23

But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord....     James 1:6-7

* MAYBE GOD HAS SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us-whatever we ask-we know that we have what we asked of him.      1 John 5:14-15

WHAT DO I BELIEVE ABOUT PRAYER?

• I BELIEVE GOD CAN.
• I BELIEVE GOD WILL.
• EVEN IF HE DOESN'T, I STILL BELIEVE.

WHY---3

WHY DOESN'T GOD SEEM FAIR?

WHY ARE BAD THINGS HAPPENING?

* MAYBE YOU'RE A VICTIM OF A BROKEN WORLD.

"...In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."    John 16:33

* MAYBE YOU BROUGHT IT ON YOURSELF.

Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction...    Galatians 6:7-8

* MAYBE GOD WANTS TO DO SOMETHING BIG.

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life..."      John 9:3

* FOR SURE GOD IS DOING SOMETHING IN YOU.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.    James 1:2-3

[God] does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities... as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.     Psalm 103:10,12

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME........ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!

WHY---4

WHY WOULD GOD USE ME?

The Lord turned to him and said, "Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian's hand. Am I not sending you?" "but Lord, Gideon asked, "how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family."    Judges 6:14-15

WHO DOES GOD MOST OFTEN USE?

1) GOD USES THE INSECURE.

Moses said to the Lord, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."    Exodus 4:10

The Lord said to [Moses], "Who gave man his mouth?...Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."   Exodus 4:11-12

2) GOD USES THE UNLIKELY.

...Samuel saw Eliab and thought, "Surely the Lord's anointed stands here before the Lord." But the Lord said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."   1 Samuel 16:6-7

3) GOD USES THE BROKEN.

Peter replied, "Man, I don't know what you're talking about!" Just as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the Lord had spoken to him: "Before the rooster crows today, you will disown me three times." And he went outside and wept bitterly.   Luke 22:60-62

WHAT DOES GOD WANT TO DO THROUGH YOU?

YOU HAVE TO STEP OUT TO FIND OUT.

"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water." "Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.    Matthew 14:28-29





Found Favor------by Pastor Steven Furtick, Elevation Church

FOUND FAVOR -- 1

Pastor Steven Furtick, Elevation Church

Moses said to the LORD, "You have been telling me, 'Lead these people', but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, 'I know you by name and you have found favor with me'. If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people." The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." Then Moses sid to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. How will anyone kow that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?"

   And the LORD said to Moses, "I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know by name."          Exodus 33:12-17

You cannot RECEIVE favor, You FIND favor!

Moses said to the LORD, "See, you say to me, 'Bring up this people; but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. Yet you have said, 'I know you by name, and you have also found favor in my sight'. Now therefore, if I have found favor in you sight, please show me now your ways, that I may know you in order to find favor in you sight. Consider too that this nation is your people." And he said, "My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." And he said to him, "If your presence will not go with me, do not bring us up from here. For how shall it be known that I have found favor in your sight, I and your people? Is it not in your going with us, so that we are distinct, I and your people, from every other people on the face of the earth?"

    And the LORD said to Moses, "This very thing that you have spoken I will do, for you have found favor in my sight, and I know you by name."      Exodus 33:12-17

THE FAVOR OF GOD IS:

The gurantee of His presence and the provision of His power to accomplish His special purpose in and through my life.

FOUND FAVOR---2

Pastor Steven Furtick, Elevation Church

THE FAVOR OF GOD IS:

The GUARANTEE of His presence and the PROVISION of His power to accomplish His special PURPOSE in and through my life.

I will look on you with favor and make you fruitful and increase your numbers, and I will keep my covement with you.     Leviticus 26:9

For surely, O LORD, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.    Psalm 5:12

For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestrows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.    Psalm 84:11

Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man.     Proverbs 3:4

...praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.     Acts 2:47

1. EXPECT

Frame your world with FAVOR.

2. RECOGNIZE

Open your eyes to OPPORTUNITY.

3. RESPOND

Give yourself to OBEDIENCE.