April is coming to a end!

Well April is coming to a end and we will start the month of May.

Got to Love this weather we have been having, but will get hot soon and think it will be sooner then usual.

My birthday was great spent it with some wonderful women: eating at Texas Roadhouse, and then went Cosmic Bowling and having lots of fun. And then girls spent half morning with their dad and grandma Turay which he was suppose to keep them until 6 or 7 but didn't and which he was suppose to have them from Friday 6 to Sunday 6 but didn't want too. It's excuse after another but oh well more time for me. And if I had a excuse for everytime I didn't want to do something or not work man what would my life be like. So then spent rest of afternoon with girls and parents that Saturday and then on Sunday went to church to hear the new series "Soul Detoux" and bought his book and a 10 year t-shirt for me and Autumn none in Libby's size. 10 years for the Lifechurch.tv of Tulsa celebrated last weekend. Then went for birthday dinner with parents and girls at Chilli's and then later that evening had birthday cake and ice cream at Davis Park great day and evening. And I loved the saying that my daughter Autumn picked out on the cake "Happy Birthday to the Best Mom Ever!" She is so sweet I love my girls.

Autumn only has 2 more weeks of school and she is out for the Summer Lucky girl......Know it is time to start planning a little trip to get away with my girls!

I got rid of the Dodge Charger and got me a 2012 Chevy Cruze which is another great way to end April and start my life on my own. WHO NEEDS A MAN NOT ME. I was doing alot of this alone when I was married and hasn't changed. Just alittle help here from parents by giving us a place to live and all but hopefully will be changing that by getting into a place of our own. Had the interview with the Sand Springs Home village and hopefully in another week will hear from them. But if it is meant to be then it is meant to be. That is how I am seeing it so I really hope it is meant to be got to stay positive and not be negative.

Well enough said and will update on the new series of Soul Detoux in a another 3 weeks our experience with Lifechurch.tv and I will update what girls experience in their classes too.

God Bless Everyone!

Life is going really good......

Life is really going good for me and the girls. We our so Blessed and Thankful for Jesus our Savior to give us such a healthy life to live, for me to have a job to take care of all of us, and for the family we have in our life.

Well I'm doing great and am so happy with life these days and couldn't be any better. Got rid of a car and got a new one so that is a good sign. I have a job and I like it too especially the hours which our 7 to 3:30 because I would rather get up early and get off earlier then 5 or later LOL. Well I am just adjusting to the life of being a single mom and just being single again and it's going great and I am in no big hurry to be in no relationship either just taking my time and plus I will be really picky on who I meet and date. I have two beautiful girls to thank about. Well that is enough about me.

Autumn is doing great. She is enjoying school and talks about her friends at school too alot. She is wearing glasses know and they our holding off on leg surgery to take the cyst out. So she is happy because she gets her summer for fun activities and plus that is good cause I'm going to start planning us a vacation to take this summer too. She can't wait until the last day of school.

Liberty well she is the typical 2 year old you can imagine LOL. She isn't a morning person but then give her awhile and she is playing, smiling and just hopping right along with all the kiddos at daycare. She is being alittle stubborn about potting in the potty. We ask her if she want to be a big girl? she say "no" and then we ask her if she wants to stay baby? she says "yes" LOL! Well then memaw askes her if she wants to go see Mickey & Minnie Mouse and she says "YES" so then we tell her she needs to go be a big girl and peepee in the potty. Which she is doing really good peepee in the potty if she stays on top of it but then she needs to remember and to poopoo in the potty too. So hopefully she will be a big a girl within the next month or so.m

Well that is what is up with us Turay Girls here in Sapulpa, OK!

WHY......Didn't God Answer my Prayers! Don't I Always Feel God's Presence?

WHY---1

WHY DON'T I ALWAYS FEEL GOD?

* IF YOU DON'T ALWAYS FEEL GOD'S PRESENCE, YOU'RE NOT ALONE.

But I cry to you for help, O Lord; in the morning my prayer comes before you. Why, O Lord, do you reject me and hide your face from me?    Psalm 88:13-14

WHY DON'T I ALWAYS FEEL GOD?

* MAYBE YOU ARE OVER SENSTONALIZING IT.

So they asked him, "What miraculous sign then will you give that we may see it and believe you? What will you do?"     John 6:30

* MAYBE YOUR'RE SIMPLY DISTRACTED.

As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said. But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made.   Luke 10:38-40

* MAYBE YOUR HEART HAS HARDENED.

You will be ever hearing but never understanding; you will be ever seeing but never perceiving. For this people's heart had become calloused; they hardly hear with their ears, and they have closed their eyes.      Matthew 13:14-15

* MAYBE YOU'VE BUILT A WALL OF SIN.

Listen! The LORD is not too weak to save you, and he is not becoming deaf. he can hear you when you call. But there is a problem -- your sins have cut you off God.     Isaiah 59:1-2

* MAYBE YOU DON'T KNOW GOD.

You do not know him, but I know him because I am from him and he sent me.    John 7:28-29

PRESENCE PROMISES

1) YOU WILL FIND GOD WHEN YOU SEEK GOD.

"You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD...        Jeremiah 29:13-14

2) YOU CAN DO LIFE WITH GOD'S PRESENCE.

And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor, who will never leave you. He is the Holy Spirit, who leads into all truth. The world at large cannot receive him, because it isn't looking for him and doesn't recognize him. But you do, because he lives with you now and later will be in you.    John 14:16-17

3) YOU CAN EXPERIENCE GOD NOW.

God did this so that men would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from each one of us.     Acts 17:27

WHY---2

WHY DIDN'T GOD ANSWER MY PRAYER?

And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.    John 14:13-14

WHY DIDN'T GOD ANSWER MY PRAYER?

* MAYBE YOU HAVE A BROKEN RELATIONSHIP.

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins.

Husbands, in the same way be considerate as you live with your wives, and treat them with respect as the weaker partner and as heirs with you of the gracious gift of lifem, so that nothing will hinder your prayers.     1 Peter 3:7

* MAYBE YOU HAVE THE WRONG MOTIVES.

When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your own pleasures.    James 4:3

All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord.     Proverbs 16:2

* MAYBE YOU DON'T BELIEVE GOD WILL DO IT.

"...But if you can do anything, take pity on us and help us." "If you can'?" said Jesus. "Everything is possible for him who believes."     Mark 9:22-23

But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord....     James 1:6-7

* MAYBE GOD HAS SOMETHING DIFFERENT.

This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us-whatever we ask-we know that we have what we asked of him.      1 John 5:14-15

WHAT DO I BELIEVE ABOUT PRAYER?

• I BELIEVE GOD CAN.
• I BELIEVE GOD WILL.
• EVEN IF HE DOESN'T, I STILL BELIEVE.

WHY---3

WHY DOESN'T GOD SEEM FAIR?

WHY ARE BAD THINGS HAPPENING?

* MAYBE YOU'RE A VICTIM OF A BROKEN WORLD.

"...In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."    John 16:33

* MAYBE YOU BROUGHT IT ON YOURSELF.

Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction...    Galatians 6:7-8

* MAYBE GOD WANTS TO DO SOMETHING BIG.

"Neither this man nor his parents sinned," said Jesus, "but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life..."      John 9:3

* FOR SURE GOD IS DOING SOMETHING IN YOU.

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.    James 1:2-3

[God] does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities... as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.     Psalm 103:10,12

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME........ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!

WHY---4

WHY WOULD GOD USE ME?

The Lord turned to him and said, "Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian's hand. Am I not sending you?" "but Lord, Gideon asked, "how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family."    Judges 6:14-15

WHO DOES GOD MOST OFTEN USE?

1) GOD USES THE INSECURE.

Moses said to the Lord, "O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue."    Exodus 4:10

The Lord said to [Moses], "Who gave man his mouth?...Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."   Exodus 4:11-12

2) GOD USES THE UNLIKELY.

...Samuel saw Eliab and thought, "Surely the Lord's anointed stands here before the Lord." But the Lord said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."   1 Samuel 16:6-7

3) GOD USES THE BROKEN.

Peter replied, "Man, I don't know what you're talking about!" Just as he was speaking, the rooster crowed. The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. Then Peter remembered the word the Lord had spoken to him: "Before the rooster crows today, you will disown me three times." And he went outside and wept bitterly.   Luke 22:60-62

WHAT DOES GOD WANT TO DO THROUGH YOU?

YOU HAVE TO STEP OUT TO FIND OUT.

"Lord, if it's you," Peter replied, "tell me to come to you on the water." "Come," he said. Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.    Matthew 14:28-29





Found Favor------by Pastor Steven Furtick, Elevation Church

FOUND FAVOR -- 1

Pastor Steven Furtick, Elevation Church

Moses said to the LORD, "You have been telling me, 'Lead these people', but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, 'I know you by name and you have found favor with me'. If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people." The LORD replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." Then Moses sid to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here. How will anyone kow that you are pleased with me and with your people unless you go with us? What else will distinguish me and your people from all the other people on the face of the earth?"

   And the LORD said to Moses, "I will do the very thing you have asked, because I am pleased with you and I know by name."          Exodus 33:12-17

You cannot RECEIVE favor, You FIND favor!

Moses said to the LORD, "See, you say to me, 'Bring up this people; but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. Yet you have said, 'I know you by name, and you have also found favor in my sight'. Now therefore, if I have found favor in you sight, please show me now your ways, that I may know you in order to find favor in you sight. Consider too that this nation is your people." And he said, "My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." And he said to him, "If your presence will not go with me, do not bring us up from here. For how shall it be known that I have found favor in your sight, I and your people? Is it not in your going with us, so that we are distinct, I and your people, from every other people on the face of the earth?"

    And the LORD said to Moses, "This very thing that you have spoken I will do, for you have found favor in my sight, and I know you by name."      Exodus 33:12-17

THE FAVOR OF GOD IS:

The gurantee of His presence and the provision of His power to accomplish His special purpose in and through my life.

FOUND FAVOR---2

Pastor Steven Furtick, Elevation Church

THE FAVOR OF GOD IS:

The GUARANTEE of His presence and the PROVISION of His power to accomplish His special PURPOSE in and through my life.

I will look on you with favor and make you fruitful and increase your numbers, and I will keep my covement with you.     Leviticus 26:9

For surely, O LORD, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.    Psalm 5:12

For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestrows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.    Psalm 84:11

Then you will win favor and a good name in the sight of God and man.     Proverbs 3:4

...praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.     Acts 2:47

1. EXPECT

Frame your world with FAVOR.

2. RECOGNIZE

Open your eyes to OPPORTUNITY.

3. RESPOND

Give yourself to OBEDIENCE.



Life is going GREAT!

Just came on here to give alittle update because life is going great here. I just need about 3 or 2 days off work so I can make phone calls and make appointments or just remember to call and make them LOL.

Girls are doing great, but growing too fast and they need to slow down. Their dad still hasn't bothered to start his visitations and see his girls but he can spend time and be with his girlfriends or friends kids. But O well they have me and a memaw and papa to spend time with them and want to be with them.

I am planning a getaway trip on my bday weekend all I ask from parents to watch the girls that weekend so I can go out of town which they probly will.

Adios amigo

Series Samson.....When Strong men are weak!

Samson--1

WHEN STRONG MEN ARE WEAK

I looked for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand before me in the gap on behalf of the land so I would not have to destroy it, but I found none. Ezekiel 22:30

• SAMSON WAS AN INCREDIBLY STRONG MAN WITH A DANGEROUSLY WEAK WILL.

ATTITUDES THAT MAKE STRONG MEN WEAK

• LUST: I WANT IT.

Samson went down to Timnah and saw there a young Philistine woman. When he returned, he said to his father and mother, "I have seen a Philistine woman in Timnah; now get her for me as my wife. Judges 14:1-2

• ENTITLEMENT: I DESERVE IT.

Some time later, when he went back to marry her, he turned aside to look at the lion's carcass. In it was a swarm of bees and some honey, which he scooped out with his hands and ate as he went along. Judges 14:8-9

• PRIDE: I CAN HANDLE IT.

Now his father went down to see the woman. And Samson made a feast there, as was customary for bridegrooms. Judges 14:10

feast: mishteh(mish-teh'); a feast or party; a celebration or occasion for drinking.

ATTITUDES THAT MAKE WEAK MEN STRONG

• I WANT GOD
• I DESERVE DEATH
• I CAN'T HANDLE ANYTHING WITHOUT GOD

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Ephesians 6:10

...My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness. 2 Corinthians 12:9

SAMSON--2

EMOTIONS THAT TAKE STRONG MEN DOWN

• SAMSON WAS EMOTION DRIVEN NOT SPIRIT LED.

So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of sinful nature. For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. Galatians 5:16-17

"Out of the eater, something to eat; out of the strong, something sweet." For three days they could not give the answer. Judges 14:14

Before sunset on the seventh day the men of the town said to him, "What is sweeter than honey? What is stronger than a lion?" Samson said to them, "If you had not plowed with my heifer, you would not have solved my riddle." Judges 14:18

TWO EMOTIONS THAT TAKE STRONG MEN DOWN

1) SAMSON BURNED WITH ANGER.

...[Samson] went down to Ashkelon, struck down thirty of their men, stripped them of their belongings and gave their clothes to those who had explained the riddle. Burning with anger, he went up to his father's house. And Samson's wife was given to the friend who had attended him at his wedding. Judges 14:19-20

2) SAMSON WAS FILLED WITH PRIDE.

Finding a fresh jawbone of a donkey, he grabbed it and struck down a thousand men. Then Samson said, "With a donkey's jawbone I have made donkeys of them. with a donkey's jawbone I have killed a thousand men." Judges 15:15-16

SAMSON IS IN NEED

• IF YOU LET YOUR NEED DRIVE YOU TO GOD, GOD WILL MEET YOUR DEEPEST NEED.

Because he was very thristy, he cried out to the Lord, "You have given your servant this great victory. Must I now die of thrist and fall into the hands of the uncircumcised?" Then God opened up the hollow place in Lehi, and water came out of it. When Samson drank, his strength returned and he revived. Judges 15:18-19

SAMSON--3

SMALL STEPS TOWARD BIG DESTRUCTION

Then God opened up the hollow place in Lehi, and water came out of it. When Samson drank, his strength returned and he revived. So the spring was called En Hakkore, and it is still there in Lehi. Samson led Israel for twenty years in the days of the Philistines. Judges 15:19-20

• SAMSON DIDN'T RUN HIS LIFE ALL AT ONCE. HE RUINED IT ONE STEP AT A TIME.







One day Samson went to Gaza, where he saw a prostitue. He went in to spend the night with her. The people of Gaza were told, "Samson is here!" So they surrounded the place and lay in wait for him all night at the city gate. They made no move during the night, saying, "At dawn we'll kill him." Judges 16:1-2

SAMSON'S SMALL STEPS

TOWARD HIS BIG DESTRUCTION

1) SAMSON TAUNTED HIS ENEMY.

But Samson lay there only until the middle of the night. then he got up and took hold of the doors of the city gate, together with the two posts, and tore them loose, bar and all. He lifted them to his shoulders and carried them to the top of the hill that faces hebron. Judges 16:3

So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful taht you don't fall! 1 Corinthians 10:12

2) SAMSON RATIONALIZED THE SAME OLD SIN.

Some time later, he fell in love with a woman in the Valley of sorek whose name was Delilah. Judges 16:5

The rulers of the Philistines went to [Delilah] and said, "See if you can lure him into showing you the secret of his great strength and how we can overpower him so we may tie him up and subdue him..." Judges 16:5

Then she said to him, "How can you say, 'I love you,' when you won't confide in me? This is the third time you have made a fool of me and haven't told me the secret of your great strength." With such nagging she prodded him day after day until he was tired to death. Judges 16:15-16 (17-18)

Having put him to sleep on her lap, she called a man to shave off the seven braids of his hair, and so began to subdue him. And his strength left him. Judges 16:19

3) SAMSON ASSUMED HIS DISOBEDIENCE WOULD NEVER COST HIM.

Then she called, "Samson, the Philistines are upon you!" He awoke from his sleep and thought, "I'll go out as before and shake myself free." But he did not know that the Lord had left him. Then the Philistines seized him, gouged out his eyes and took him down to Gaza. Binding him with bronze shackles, they set him to grinding in the prison. Judges 16:20-21

• WHERE ARE YOU STEPPING AWAY FROM GOD?

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But the hair on his head began to grow again after it had been shaved. Judges 16:22

SAMSON--4

FAILING FORWARD

• A MAN'S GREATEST FEAR IS FAILURE AND GREATEST PAIN IS REGRET.

SAMSON'S STORY SHOWS US

• A FAILURE IS AN EVENT, NEVER A PERSON.

Now the rulers of the Philistines assembled to offer a great sacrifice to Dagon their god and to celebrate, saying, "Our god has delivered Samson, our enemy, into our hands." When the people saw [Samson], they praised their god, saying, "Our god has delivered our enemy into our hands, the one who laid waste our land and multiplied our slain." While they were in high spirits, they shouted, "Bring out Samson to entertain us." so they called Samson out of the prison, and he performed for them... Judges 16:23-25

TWO REPONSES TO FAILURE

• THE NATURAL RESPONSE IS REMORSE.
• THE BETTER RESPONSE IS REPENTANCE.

...When they stood him among the pillars, Samson said to the servant who held his hand, "Put me where I can feel the pillars that support the temple, so that I may lean against them"... then Samson prayed to the Lord, "O Sovereign Lord, remember me. O God, please strengthen me just once more... Judges 16:25-26, 28

WHEN A MAN IS DOWN, HE'S NOT OUT!

• EVEN IN OUR FAILURES, GOD CAN STILL ACCOMPLISH HIS PURPOSES.

Then Samson reached toward the two central pillars on which the temple stood. Bracing himself against them, his right hand on the one and his left hand on the other, Samson said, "Let me die with the Philistines!" Then he pushed with all his might, and down came the temple on the rulers and all the people in it. Thus he killed many more when he died than while he lived. Judges 16:29-30



MOVING FORWARD

1) WHAT PILLARS ARE YOU PUSHING DOWN?

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2) HOW ARE YOU GOING TO DO IT?

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For though a righteous man falls seven times, he rises again... Proverbs 24:16





 



I attended the "Sisters" event at Lifechurch.tv!

Sisters

He Loves Me

1. We are His much Loved Girls.

    God is a relational God. He created us in His image (Genesis 1:27) to have a Love relationship with us. Our relational desires come from Him. He died that He could win us back and again have a Love relationship with us.

"Yes I have loved you with an everlasting love; Therefore with loving kindness I have drawn you. Jeremiah 31:3

"By this we know love, because He laid down His life for us." 1 John 3:16

"Behold what manner of love the Father has lavished us that we should be called children of God." 1 John 3:1

"As the Father loved me, I also have loved you; abide in My Love." John 15:9

We have nothing to do with this love. This is grace: That which we cannot do; secure a love relationship with Him. He has done for us. We have only to believe this truth and receive it by grace. We are His much loved girls. It is this place, sitting with Him, abiding with Him that He desires you to experience an awakening of His love.

2. We are His "I am-I can" girls.

By the grace of God I am what I am. 1 Corinthians 15:10

I am saved--Ephesians 2:5, "It is by grace you have been saved."

I am valued--1 Peter 1:18, 19, "You were redeemed with the precious blood of Christ."

I am special, belonging to God--1 Peter 2:9, "You are chosen (special), a people belonging to God."

I am strong, I am secure, I am steady, I am sure--1 Peter 5:10, "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."

"I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4:13

Our I ams and I cans in our everyday thoughts need to match His thoughts. The negative I ams and I can'ts need to be changed with the truth of Holy Spirit. John 8:32, "The truth will set you free."

Our everyday thoughts are directly related to our emotions and the choices we make. For example, if you want to feel empowered and encouraged then believe truthfully and become His I am and I can GIRL!

3. We are His joy girls.

    We are not His joy girls because we have no challenge or struggle, but IN our struggles we have a God who is our Refuge, Strength, Friend, rock, Shield, Healer, Redeemer, Mighty Warrior and so much more! This is personal to you in your personal struggles. He is committed to come to you as you come to Him. Your Life and all that concerns you, matters to Him.

Psalm 23:3, "He restores my soul."

2 Corinthians 1:3, "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles..."

Romans 15:13, "May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him..."

Isaiah 41:10, "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not dismayed, for I am you God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

Psalm 16:11, "You will show me the path of life. In your presence there is fullness of joy and eternal pleasures at your right hand."

Isaiah 42:5-7, 10-13

4. We are His warrior girls.

    He is our Mighty Warrior! He hears our cries. he comes. He rescues us. He fights for us. he trains us. All because he desires to have a personal love relationship with us.

Worship God: v 1-3

911 call: vs. 4-6

Response to 911 call: vs. 7-15

Rescues us: vs. 16-19

Trains us (28-50) to be "strong in the Lord and in his mighty strength (Ephesians 6:10); steady, standing firm (Ephesians 6:11-18); secure in belonging to Him (1 Peter 2:9); sure in the His word (Paslm 119:97-105)." and fully devoted to Him (2 cchronicles 2:9) as He is fully devoted to us (Jeremiah 24:7). And from this loved relationship with Him, "we love because He first loved us." (1 John 4:19) And then we can truly love one another deeply from the heart." (1 Peter 1:22) Reflecting that we are followers of Christ. John 13:34-35, "A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this all men will know that you are my can truly be followers of Christ.